you walk soft upon this river full. a life rushing. a pulse beat wet and deep and full and real. you walk upon this river and hold fast to breakrock and scraggle. you hold fast to late night goodbyes with cabs a wait. you hold deadly to i can’t and it’s complicated. you can’t hold on any longer and are swept passed. away. past away. who won’t let go for love for night and the cover of dark and heart and the light. who won’t?
you walk upon this river a rush. a rushing through heart and hope and foolishness and failure and weak. you walk upon too much to little, life undone and every sort of lie. too old. too real. too full. too fat. too weak. too man. too rushing. too fast. too late.
you rush upon this river and in the wake it swallows. so hard to lie. so hard to live. so hard to be until. until we weep and full and thrash upon this delicate heart so open. so dead and kicked about. so stupid so weak so in love with your flesh so needing you tonight so alone in deep bowness roads and thrashing streets so here so lost and lovely. so true. so unforgiven so untenable and broke. so needing and giving and full empty. a throb unheard un handed un needed un want.
a word and the beg. a word and the please. a word and the come to me. come to me. come to me. come to me. trust. come to me and see. come. hold fast your hurt. hold weak your loss and come. come with me here tonight. let go to the night. let go to the current. the heart. let go and come.
i’m worth less than my best promise. my most earnest moment till you break through. redeem this weak flesh and heart. forgive this impetuous moment forgive wanting you with everything. forgive a fool his foolish hope. forgive the wandering heart, hand, eye, night. forgive stella and her need and anger and..
slip unto the night. slip unto the river till your flesh come cold and alone and wish for more.
